My life
Fuck my life. Fuck it. Its so stupid, you promised. I trusted you. Then you fucking overreact. No. Its not right. I wanted to sit there with you, and enjoy the night, but no.
Day 5- 12/27/2011
Sorry I haven’t posted, I’ve been really busy.
So today, I saw you changed your relationship status
Day 4 - 12/21/2011
Today, I haven’t really talked to you, but I’m really looking forward to tonight. I want to talk you so bad. I ran this morning, and all I could think about was you. I kept thinking to myself, am I his #1? As you can tell, you mean the world to me, and I just to be yours.
On a non-loving note, my brother and I have been watching Christmas movies today and we drank hot chocolate. I love my brother . - 2:30
I talked to you today, and I couldn’t help but smile. I can tell you, I don’t want to lose, because losing you would be the hardest thing I would have to face. I love you a lot. You said thatd it be me and you forever.
Day 3 - 12/20/2011
So, I talked to you this morning at like 11:45-1:45, so not long but at least we talked. I read on your wall today the conversation between you and makenzie, I don’t like her. She’s trying worm between us, but I honestly don’t care. I’m not completely sure that’s what she’s doing, but I just don’t like the way she is all over you. I don’t care though, because I know you love me, and you know that I love you. So today, I went to the doctor and they put me on a pill, then I helped mama at her office and listened to some country
Day 2- 12/19/2011
Only 6 more days till Christmas! Listening to Mac miller. Still haven’t heard from you. I’m not going to tell myself that you are ignoring me, because that’s probably not the truth. At least I hope it isn’t. I want to see you so bad, but I don’t think Anyone knows how I really feel. -11
I’m laying in bed, listening to country music. I just did my make up. I want to see you today, so bad. I want to be warmed up in your arms. It’ll be like heaven. If you only knew though. I wish I could tell you everything, like how I’m feeling, ask you how you’re feeling. I just want to talk to you. It seems impossible. I need you more than I need anyone right now. -11:41
After I last posted, I made a status stating “I’m glad to know that I’m your second option”. My mother commented with its ohkay, be happy that you were let go when you were. Love the ones that are make you their first option. Followed by a different comment by her stating, she will realize what she had when your out of her reach or something along those lines. Then this man (Garrey) who is supposed to be like a father figure in my life, because mine isn’t like one at all, commented with I’m done with this petty bullshit. bye bye. He blocked me and my mom on facebook and so my mom blocked him on my brothers. Let me tell you something Garrey, I am sitting here watching you change a whole 180 degrees. I’m not going to sit in this chair anymore, I’m going to stand up and say what I feel, because I’m done and I’m not one of your little bitches that does whatever you say. I’m chelsea, and I am who god made me. Not your bitch. -4:00
Oh my goodness, you messaged me on facebook and I got the biggest smile on my face. I miss you so much that it’s indescribable.
